It’s actually been a long time since I last posted on this blog. In part, it has been due to the busy-ness of my new role as Assistant Worship Director of Faith Community Church. It has meant spending more time with people and less time in terms of my personal pursuits, such as writing.
I used to say (quite tongue-in-cheek) that I would never consider taking on any pastoral function because I didn’t like people much. In a sense, nothing can quite disappoint you like people. But on the other hand, nothing is more rewarding than seeing people come alongside each other, supporting one another, loving one another and changing for the better. In the last couple of months, I have grown in utmost admiration for my worship director who has unending capacity; my band music director who is one of the most humble and kind people I know; and the amazing members of Band 3 who always work really hard to bring excellence to their worship whenever they are rostered on. I have even had a young guy from youth ministry ask me to mentor him in all things worship. So I am really enjoying this aspect of my journey even though it has taken up more of my time than I might have at first been willing to spare.
The reward of working with people was all the more apparent this week.
As usual, I was really excited to lead today’s worship with Fantastic Team 3. Unfortunately, we couldn’t rehearse on Saturday so we had to come early to church at 6.30 am to set up, sound check and run through the set. I had sent out some instructions during the week for the team to prepare, but then on Friday night, I came down with a bad fever. Like, really bad.
I got worried about whether I would still be able to lead. I tried sleeping it off, but that night, I had chills all night and was aching all over. Saturday came around and I started pumping myself full of antibiotics. I still wasn’t sure if I would make it for Sunday but I was reluctant to get someone to replace me since I was so excited to serve with my band this week. So with some prayer and meds, I felt a lot better by Saturday afternoon and I was determined to keep going.
For a sick person, waking up at 5.15 am on a Sunday morning is no mean feat. I dragged myself trance-like out of bed, had something to eat, took some more meds, took a shower and drove off to church. I felt a bit light-headed, thinking maybe it was a mistake after all trying to lead worship in my condition.
But when I got to the church car park, our sound guy enthusiastically ran to my car and asked me for the keys to the auditorium to open up the place. Normally, I would have to do that. But I was really touched by his servanthood. Everyone looked so excited, I didn’t want to let them down.
By the time we started rehearsing the first song, which I thought was quite tricky (it being a new song after all), my spirit had lifted. These guys had practised hard during the week and everything came together on the first go. From that point on, I could just feel my team ministering the love of God to me. It was a great experience that just flowed through right into the service!
The theme for this week’s worship came from Isaiah 54:10:
Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,”
says the Lord, who has compassion on you
Our chairperson Amos Ngoi opened the service reading from 1 Corinthians 13: that God’s love never fails! As we sang, I just felt the Lord ministering His love to His people. When we got to “Joy of My Desire”, Pastor Benny came up to release a word from Ps 46, that there was a “river of life which made glad the city of God” and that God was our refuge and fortress.
Even though I often try to, when preparing for worship, separate my own needs from the needs of the congregation, today, I really felt God ministering to me during the worship time, that even despite how I was feeling, His love for me never fails.
Here is the list:
// One Thing Remains (A)
// Nothing is Impossible (A)
// Above All (A)
// Joy of My Desire (A)
// Forever Reign (bridge and chorus only) (A)
Here’s One Thing Remains by Bethel Church:
Have a blessed week!